My sweet child

My sweet child
You will never know the pain
You will never know the guilt
You will never know how long I tried to stay

You will not know the demons that were battled
You will not know the decisions that were so hard to make
You will not know the burden it was to carry
You will not know the days I could barely get through

My sweet child
You will not know the nights that were filled with tears
You will not know the fear of the withdrawal
You will not know the heartbreak of seeing a parent fall apart

You will not know the pain of your childhood being taken too soon
You will not know what it is like to ask your parent to choose you
You will not know the pain of asking your husband to please choose you
You will not know the pain of never being enough

My sweet child
You will not know the pain of having to be the glue that holds it together
You will not know what it is like to be told to stop dreaming so much
You will never know the pain of not knowing who I really am

My sweet child
Although I can not protect you from ever feeling pain
You will always have a Mom that
Encourages you
Loves you
Supports your dreams whatever they may be
Never lets you limit yourself
That is healthy enough to show you her love

I hope and pray that you will find your happiness in life
I have made the best decisions I could to give you the best life possible
I have made decisions to be the best me possible so that
You will always have an example to be authentic to who you are

I love you my sweet child, and you may know hurt in life, but you will always have a Mom that loves you and is your biggest fan. Always, unconditional love. There are truly no words, I wish for you that you that you find love, that you always feel as if you are more than enough, that you never settle for less than experiencing the best in everything. I wish for you that you find joy, peace and happiness. I wish for you that you are always authentic to who you are, and that you find someone who encourages it in you, and who supports you in all that you do. My wish for you is to live this life with passion and joy because that is why we are here, and that is what you are worth.