Last weekend I graduated with my bachelors degree, and it was a moment that had been years in the making. There were many that disagreed with what I was doing when I decided to go back to school in my mid 30's, many that said it was a waste of time and some that even said I should stop dreaming so much. I am so glad I followed my heart and stayed true to myself. I was able to complete the first step in a journey that I have dreamt of for a long time.
When my Mom died in 2006 my world came crashing down around me. I fell in to a depression and at the same time my career had ended due to the financial crisis of the housing industry. I also found out that my marriage was probably going to end, but wasn't quite sure. It was a matter of 6 months that my Mom died, I lost my career, our house went into foreclosure and my marriage was on shaky ground. At that time I also contemplated suicide to escape the pain and depression. Luckily I chose to live, and from the point I made that decision my life was new again. I started a journey of self discovery, self love and self forgiveness. I believed that if I worked on me then my life could be all that I wanted it to be. Over a period of several years I started believing in myself more and more. In 2009 I decided I would go back to school to become a therapist, it was something I had wanted since I was young. I didn't know how I was going to do it, and I took a leap of faith and just followed what felt right. It was time to start living, it was time to learn to breathe again.
From the time I started school I experienced another life change that would lead me deeper into my journey, I decided to divorce my husband after more than a decade I decided to follow my heart and start a new life. I was deathly afraid of how this would affect my kids, and in the end my daughter said it best after a difficult year, she said "I love to see you happy, and you have been so happy" it was a moment that helped me stay strong through several years of doubt, worry and best of all more growth than I had ever been through - I made it. Not only did I make it in life, I became the best me possible, one that has created the life she could only imagine. I can stand tall and know that I stayed true to who I am and became the woman I always thought I could be. Walking across the stage to receive my diploma last week was way more than a piece of paper, it was a moment to realize and appreciate a new and wonderful life. I am turning 40 this year and I can honestly say I have created the most incredible life for me. It was a long, sometimes difficult, sometimes incredible journey...and it was worth every step. For those who doubt themselves and doubt that they can create joy and peace in their lives...don't....it is possible, it takes you to believe in yourself. When you start working on yourself and you start forgiving and loving you - your life will blossom, your soul will fly. I start my Masters in the fall, and I am savoring each moment of this incredible life and journey. Namaste :)
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Every Little Thing is Gonna Be Alright...This song by Bob Marley plays in my head anytime I get stressed out, ever since my Mom died in 2006. In a way I always believed it was her way of letting me know she was with me, and that in the bigger picture everything really will be alright. Lately I have really been living in the moment and savoring each wonderful feeling that comes my way. It is like something in me has realized the secret sauce to life. It is really hard to explain, but it is as if I got the okay from the universe to just enjoy life and forget about worry. Imagine living a day with no worry or stress? Wouldn't that be incredible? That is exactly what I have been feeling, like everything truly will be alright, and the message given to me has been to not waste time worrying, savor your time to enjoy. Smile, laugh, be silly, and let your soul be free to expand. What you give out you get back....so give out joy, peace and abundance and that is what you will get back - ten fold. Namaste :)
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
The past few days I have been living in the moment, truly living in each moment and savoring each experience. When the sun is on my skin I take it in and feel so warm and so peaceful. As I mentioned in my last blog, I am in the middle of reading Anita Moorjani's book, Dying to Be Me...and it has been such a profound reminder that this life is meant to be cherished and lived fearlessly. Have you ever tried to savor each moment? Isn't it an absolute joy?? When I look at my husband my soul is filled with pure joy, he is my favorite person to enjoy time with, I am so fortunate to share a life with someone I absolutely adore. When I talk to my children I am so thrilled and grateful that I get to share this experience of life and growing up with them. When I take a breath of fresh air I feel rejuvenated and full of life. I encourage you to read Anita's book if you have not, and if you have re-read it and give it your best as often as possible to really enjoy moments as if they are brand new. Life gets tough, but if you remember to appreciate and enjoy maybe life is just purely magnificent - I know it is. Pure love, pure joy always. Namaste :)
Friday, June 12, 2015
As I read Anita Moorjani's book, Dying to Be Me, for the third time I am still in awe of the way it resonates with me. Reading it helps me to remember to be in the here and now, to enjoy each moment with gratitude. Often times I get so wrapped up in worrying about everything - work, school, finances, people that I forget that this moment is filled with extraordinary beauty. I will try and live in the moment today and feel the beauty of where I am at and what I am feeling. Everything is going to be okay, all is well and life is beautiful. Breathe in the beauty, feel the love, feel the joy, feel the peace - life is wonderful, it truly is!!!